I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but I stopped blogging for a while. A long while, actually.
That doesn’t mean I’ve stopped writing, but I’ve been in a season of life where my writing became personal – just a place for me and God, and sometimes a few close friends. A place in life where I have poured my heart out to Abba – all the ugly and all the beautiful.
The last 9 months of life have been indescribable, heartbreaking, hopeful, healing, miserable, joy-filled, and redemptive. Someday I will talk about it all when the time is right and God gives me the green light.
The last several months I’ve just spent time focusing on me. Though that may sound selfish at first glance, I promise you it’s not. I’ve allowed God to do some deep healing in my heart. We’ve walked through forgiveness together. We’ve walked through understanding His grace at new levels. I’ve experienced much loss and much gain.
I’ve had to walk away from destructive friendships. I’ve had to say goodbye to people I once thought were safe. I’ve had to let go of much so I could gain much more. I’ve had to lay a ministry down and just wait for God’s directions on the next steps. I wish I could say it’s been easy, but that’s far from the truth.
[ctt template=”5″ link=”1Q2t2″ via=”yes” ]Sometimes we have to let go of much so we can gain much more. – Sundi Jo[/ctt]
Oh… but in this season of loneliness, I’ve learned so much. I’m still learning so much.
I’ve learned just how much the enemy hates me and is set out to steal, kill, and destroy.
I’ve learned I didn’t lose my ability to lead.
I’ve learned as you grow in your walk with God, not everyone is going to like it.
I’ve learned I haven’t lost my ability to love and show grace to others.
I’ve learned that as you speak truth, sometimes you will be rejected by people you love.
I’ve learned God still trusts me in the big and small things.
I’ve learned that as you grow as a leader in ministry, your circle of trust becomes smaller and smaller. This may be one of the most heartbreaking things I’ve learned.
I’m learning at a new level that I don’t have to care what people think about me and that is becoming so stinkin’ freeing!
I believe the time to bring my writing back to the public has come. I believe new layers of healing have allowed me to no longer be afraid to share my voice.
Thank you for allowing me to have a season to breath. Thank you for praying for me. Thank you for encouraging me to keep using my voice to offer hope. Thank you for waiting for me.
As you can see, I got a new website makeover. I’m excited about it. I’m getting ready to re-release Dear Dad, Did You Know I Was a Princess, and I’ve got some other projects in the works.
As we move forward together, here’s what I promise: to continue being my authentic self as I write.
Here’s what I won’t promise: to provide you something new just for the sake of writing something new. I’m going to write and share as I feel led.
Let’s continue to walk on this journey together, eh? Let’s continue to heal together, one next right step at a time.
Love you!
