I don’t have children. I’m not really sure if that’s in God’s plan for me. I guess only time will tell. I may never experience pregnancy or what it’s like to have a child growing inside of you.
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But I’ve been pregnant before. I still am.
Pregnant with dreams and visions.
I recently gave birth to one of those dreams and now the hard work has begun. But there are still many inside my heart. Dreams that I know and believe that I will someday give birth to. (Not necessarily in this order)
- To give over half my income to missions and non-profit organizations that God lays on my heart
- To publish multiple books
- To speak all over the world
- To share the Gospel with strangers
- To be debt free
- Energy every day
- To be married
Those are just a few.
Some of these dreams are in the beginning stages. Some are in the waiting stages. I know God is preparing to deliver the blessing over some of them because I can hear Him and others around me yelling, “Push!”
God is teaching me trust. To rely completely on Him. To ask. To seek. To knock. Labor pains may be harder than others, but I have to ask myself, Am I willing to keep pushing or will I give up?
I choose to keep going. I hope you do too. It’s worth the wait.
Let me get vulnerable for a moment and use the dream of being married as an example.
There are days I want to be married, because I desire companionship. It can get lonely at times going to sleep at night with six pillows and no one to share them with. There are days I can feel my fear of men creep up due to the trauma of sexual abuse, and I make the decision that I will be just fine by myself for the rest of my life. Then I see a couple sitting in the booth across from me at the restaurant with love in their eyes and my heart desires that. I am still pregnant with the dream.
I’m trusting God and relying on His timing. It may not be easy all the time, but I know that He will follow through with His promises.
So I trust. I wait. I hope. I dream. I push. I ask. I seek. I knock. I wait.
Are you pushing through the pains of waiting?
Question: What dreams do you know you are close to giving birth to? How are you handling the waiting process? Comment below…
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Great Post. Many who have dreams/visions give up because they don’t see there dreams/visions coming to pass. I know that I have been waiting so long for my social media ministry to help small churches/ministries come to pass. Someday’s it looks like its gonna happen, someday’s it doesn’t … but I know this is a desire of my heart and a passion that He placed in me, and that’s what keeps me going 🙂 I am gonna put this post on my Building Others Up Facebook page …. I know my members will love this post. Keep up the great work and patience 🙂
Thanks Joey. I hope the post blesses others and blessings in giving birth to your dreams and visions.
Great post Sundi Jo and I am very happy about your first getting published. One of many!
Loved this post! I love so many of yours, of course…but your question hits home, for sure. I made the big decision not to continue in one career path this next season, or at least, not in the setting I had been in, in order to pursue my yoga teaching career a bit deeper. Scary. not a money maker. A ministering service that I love and am so passionate about, that comes with side things like blogging and social media, which are fun but also take time…I am “pregnant” with the dream of following God’s will in all of this, and I definitely had a peace about the decision when I made it, and He has been faithful to give me affirmations along the way…but still…
Still, while it seems great things are in the works (classes, workshops, conferences at which I will teach), I seemingly need other income to fill out our current budget. something flexible that allows me to go do these important things (and others) that my “previous life” was always denying…and some of those “other things” will cost money as well! So, it all looks a bit impossible in my own understanding…
But God says not to trust in that. To trust in Him with all of my heart. To acknowledge Him in all of my ways, and He will make my path straight. He says nothing is impossible for Him, and I can do anything in Him. He says I can ask for wisdom and He will give it. He says if I ask, I receive, when I seek, I find, and when I knock, the door is opened. He says He has a good plan for my life…and so many other scriptures that I am truly running to, standing on, counting out loud DAILY, and I believe Him! that is the crazy part, perhaps…=-)
At times I have been very certain that I am called to this service I provide, and He has placed people around me in this season who are encouraging me and giving me opportunities that affirm this just might be so…
but still, there are bills to pay, right? and big dreams not just for me and from me, but for my husband, too! I am “pregnant” with the idea of him finding his passion, loving his work, etc…why should I get all the fun? 😉 He says he feels that it is his job right now to support me in all of this and that his time will come. In not these words exactly, we discussed recently that perhaps “my purpose” with Vessels of Clay Yoga was actually “our purpose” at this time…and those other big dreams will come after…
But it is easy to look around at the world, its economy, etc, and think, are you NUTS? I mean, I volunteer at a food pantry weekly and see people in need all the time, and it is so humbling. I give Glory to God for that humbling. It hurts.
So, I wait. Because He said to. And if I receive, it isn’t because I am more worthy than anyone else…I am WELL aware of that.
God says to delight in Him and He will grant you the desires of your heart. I think that has 2 meanings: one, the obvious–those things you are passionate about, dream, etc…but two, less obvious–He will place desires there (and already has) that line up with His plan for you..
He also says not to worry about our lives but to focus on Him…so that is what I am doing, in the waiting (incubation/gestation) period….delighting in Him, focusing on Him, acknowledging Him, trusting Him and let’s face it, being REAL with Him.
At the end of the day, at least I have a relationship with Him…the best thing, really.
(ps…sorry for the novel… should have just written my own blogpost, huh?)
Sounds like you have a blog post of your own. 🙂
Some great dreams you have and glad some of them are starting to come true. I want to write book and speak at leadership conferences.
Thanks Dan. I’m feeling very blessed. Here’s to your dreams as well friend.